22nd Aug: The waiting (part 2)

Shadow of death

Its been 12 days since I had any meds in my body today & man am I feeling it!

The last 5 days have been really rough involving 2 falls (luckily at home with no injuries) which I had to get people to help me back up, am experiencing major fatigue, a stabbing nuero pain in my head (my left side) & more. The weakenss is particularly of my upper limbs – am feeling really weak.

As usual I have been taking my temp regularly to make sure I dont have, I generally dont feel unwell (flu etc.) but need to be safe.

I realised on this past Tuesday that we are coming into spring, this is when relapses are very if not more common.  I used to dread Spring every year for this reason.  However as unpleasant as it is may it bring one on…

While I have canceled appointments to give myself more rest over the next few days I find myself really frustrated as I LOVE being busy & had/have an exciting few days ahead planned.

I find myself reflecting on my favourite scripture – Psalm 23

“The Lord is my shepherd;

I shall not want.

He makes me to lie down in green pastures;
He leads me beside the still waters.

He restores my soul;

He leads me in the paths of righteousness

For His name’s sake.

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil;
 For You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;

You anoint my head with oil;

My cup runs over.

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me

All the days of my life;

And I will dwell in the house of the Lord Forever.”

I have recently been good at asking for help but know I need to now rest & see what happens (VERY hard for me).  As it says in verse 4 I will not (choose not to) fear  as I am assured that the Lord (the lover of my soul) is with me & is in charge!